Well, the new year is here and after a few weeks of it I find myself slipping into old habits. Although I've rejoined Weight Watchers (and am down a couple of pounds) I'm not making good food choices. As a diabetic there are only so much my medicine can do. I MUST make good food choices and move more. *sigh* I'm just not where I want to be.
My spiritual walk is also weaving and wavering eventhough I've led two young ladies to the Lord this month. I really had very little to do with it. I just happened to be the trusted adult they wanted to talk to. :-)
I don't know. Really? My life is frickin' FABULOUS. Seriously. Two great kids, a husband I adore, a job I love, a supportive church family, a comfortable home. So why do I sound so...well...whiny?
I find myself slipping into the old way of thinking. You know. Doubting. Wondering. Playing out horrible fictitious tragedies in my mind. Why do people do that? I think that perhaps thinking is much like learning a language. Once you've learned to communicate with one type of language it takes practice (and patience!) to fluently use another one. Once you've learned to think about things a certain way its hard to think about them in any other way.
Thinking about thinking can be pretty exhausting.